I decided to write this thought in english because I see my followers are in all the globe. Thanks for that. I appreciate a lot the time you are taking to read all and any stupidity that I type here...
I consider to myself an ordinary soul. A person trying just to exist, believing that every moment is closer to the right chances, choices and expecting that everything that I do it's ok or will be fine for me. Thas I am proving that I am another human.
I decided to title this thought "Me and love" because I have been thinking in the way I face this disease ... I think that love probably is a disease lol... I got a lot of reasons to argue about it but is not the thing to write now.
The first time I thought that "I knew what love is" I was in my 19 years so so. Now I think I was a baby. I had no idea about love lol because that person simply could not see me like a girl. After that I tried with a new person for one month and that's it! We were absolutely differents, in a way that you could never imagine lol... I thought that kissing someone could show me more about someone. Probably is a fact because the first kiss with someone can tell you a lot about that person. I still think that way. The point is, what we really want? what are we expecting on someone?
Being in my 31's I am considering that time acts in our favor. Time gives us experience, more thoughts about relationships, understanding, patient, "love", warmth and more...
What I know about me now:
- When I say "I love you" is because it's true
- I do not say it to someone that is not sure about her feelings for me frecuently
- Being sure of the feeling of someone for me I say it often
- I do not like to tie someone knowing that the person I am loving is not sure about me. I would never tolerate myself if she/ he can not clarify her feelings because of me
- I give the space and time that someone needs if she needs it
- If I do not speak for some time to the one I love it's because I want that person to feel free and it is my way to give space. That would never mean that my feelings are gone
- If someone wanna stay in my life, that person will do anything and everything to stay...
- When I do not understand something or a situation I would prefer to keep silence before of saying something stupid without thinking.
- I am not someone that won't say something if it's bothering me
- I smile a lot, I am happy... and I expect someone to share that part of me
- I consider myself too simple lol
- I feel that loving someone is the most precious gift that God gave us.
- I would prefer to act always... Nowdays all the people promise, say things, and they do nothing for the one they love. I strongly feel that our actions talk by themselves...
- I unterstand and believe that we can not love someone else if we are not able to love ourselves first of all...
- Sometimes (always) I am stubborn.... lol
- Love is also persevere, communicate, share, to care, and spending time, precious time with someone......it's devotion...
For now I do not know what else to say. I am feelinf sleepy lol
hugs and thanks for reading!
Lis